A Life Inked

ye ishq b kia queed he koi hona na chahe rihaaaaaaaaaa...

ایک مدت سے تری یاد بھی آئی نہ ہمیں  او ر ہم بھول گئے ہوں تجھے ایسا بھی نہیں (فراق گورکھپوری)

I met with my neighbor today in the mess he is not my class fellow so I don't usually  meet him we share the Internet connection tho so the only talk occurs while I have to get bill money or salam that we as a Muslim say  formally so I was sitting eating and wondering about a lot of stuff in the ocean of my mind I heard a vague sound Umar he might have called my name more than three times I looked there and saw the next room neighbor calling my name I acted like oh I'm sorry I didn't hear you  he talked about the washroom repair thing that  was going on  under my supervision so he asked about the administration role in it which was not at all well this is a whole new topic to talk upon if I will get time I will write about it. okay so asked about his contribution and he said he will pay next day he was nice and humble and then he asked about my year of study and then I asked him about his job I used to think he was a post-graduate but he actuall...

you know what  whats the most beautiful thing about life? it gives a chance you may have the worst life worst surrounding or poor background you might be tired of your miserable life you are living. you may see nothing in the future except darkness but the most beautiful truth of life that I am gonna unveil ''ÍT GIVES A CHANCE'' a chance to change everything your future your surroundings your life and everything don't be disappointed just wait for your moment and your day when there will be no one except you and you now it is up to you .will you avail it or go with this misery.

I don't know what is going on nowadays. the thoughts which were scary once are right in front of us she always used to say throw them away close your eyes and have faith in me this always used to calm me down and even with the worst possible thoughts I could be just in peace. but now things have changed maybe its time to move from a world of imagination to the real one. she will talk about those thoughts herself and I will not even resist I don't want to make her feel I'm running away from reality maybe we are mature and more realistic now but sometimes I am just confused in Are We moving Close Or Going Away?

tomorrow finally  i will be able to see her again after 2 months I remember when she left I was happy that she is going to the place she likes and belongs but I was disappointed that the place is far far from me over 4000 miles or more these 2 months, I know how I spent  the time didn't want to go to college and the day i went it was all dull when the only person you go to college  for is not there.  whats the point of going then I remember how we used to bunk classes and now after 2 months, I don't know how we will spend some time away from this miserable world now its almost time for exam proper end classes and sendups but I want to let you know I missed you a lot it was 1st time we were away from each other for almost 60 days I'm looking for to hug you and feel your closeness and I want to say I miss you a lot and I love you and tomorrow I wanna hug you and say welcome back soul mate

I'm sorry I make you study I know I say a lot when I don't have the right even I always scare you about the study  but the truth is my intentions are never bad never to hurt you I want you to get the most out of time that you can I want you to study make a proper study timetable or if cant do that set daily goals to achieve I know I cant do that but at least I try I know you never ever were the studious girl but my love right now we don't have any choice except to move towards the future with all might and studying is the only way I know you don't like me whenever I ask you that I never like someone too whoever question me that neither my parents and I see you the same way and I never like for you too my intentions were never to make you feel sad but believe me whatever I do for us it is nothing but my love that doesn't want to see you in trouble near the exam I'm sorry I behave that way I'm sorry I'm like that I'm Sorry But ...