A Life Inked

sometimes you wish for something in your life it may be a minor one or maybe the major one. you pray for it you crave for it a lot.you try as much hard as you can just to get that thing.you just wish that you had heavenly powers and you could grab it.this craving is irrespective of the fact whether it was a minor or major thing like recently that I suffered from that desire and it was I wanted to win a medal from tennis tournament held in our university at the class level.people may be trying to win but I wanted to win a medal even tho I never played tennis in my whole life and only 3 or 4 days practice but when something like that happens and you get stubborn even tho the truth is right in front of you that you cant achieve it but still somewhere in your mind you still think maybe I can win. well miracles don't happen the most of time and I lost as expected but I tried to I prayed for it I craved for it then why? why would anything like that happen to me? why couldn't ...

Have you ever gotten the feeling that you’re always going to be put last by someone you need to be first for? And no matter how hard you try to please them, they’re always going to like someone else better. No matter what you do for them they’ll always be pointing out what you didn’t do. And you always keep wondering what you’re doing wrong, what are you missing, are you just not trying hard enough, can you just never be enough, what is wrong with you? Why doesn’t this person like you as much as the others? What can they give them that you can’t? And even after you try to make all the big decisions of your life to be what would please them, they don’t even realise how unhappy those big decisions have made you, how much you’ve started to hate your life and your future because they’re too busy criticising you for not doing the smaller things their way. It's the worst always coming in second when everything you do is to get the first spot. It's the worst when it seems everyone i...