A Life Inked

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I don't know what is going on nowadays. the thoughts which were scary once are right in front of us she always used to say throw them away close your eyes and have faith in me this always used to calm me down and even with the worst possible thoughts I could be just in peace. but now things have changed maybe its time to move from a world of imagination to the real one. she will talk about those thoughts herself and I will not even resist I don't want to make her feel I'm running away from reality maybe we are mature and more realistic now but sometimes I am just confused in Are We moving Close Or Going Away?

tomorrow finally  i will be able to see her again after 2 months I remember when she left I was happy that she is going to the place she likes and belongs but I was disappointed that the place is far far from me over 4000 miles or more these 2 months, I know how I spent  the time didn't want to go to college and the day i went it was all dull when the only person you go to college  for is not there.  whats the point of going then I remember how we used to bunk classes and now after 2 months, I don't know how we will spend some time away from this miserable world now its almost time for exam proper end classes and sendups but I want to let you know I missed you a lot it was 1st time we were away from each other for almost 60 days I'm looking for to hug you and feel your closeness and I want to say I miss you a lot and I love you and tomorrow I wanna hug you and say welcome back soul mate

I'm missing you from the day of your departure.i feel like half or maybe even less than that. I feel the major portion of me has gone away. you are all my happiness my pleasures my springs and now they are all gone. im dull and dreary sometimes dead or dying like im while writing this im just like a person who is just living a life because he has to live all the time I put on a fake mask of smile when inside im dying I want to cry I can't even question God I was the one who wanted you to go and now im the one who is craving for you to come back my whole body is energyless my all laughs are fake because you took away the real ones you wanted to know how much I love you I love you that much that I don't see a life without you even tho imposing to be alive right now but inside I feel like my soul has already departed don't make me wait too much every part of my body is missing you honey please make me alive please come back and never go

4000 miles in between us. 30th April it was. we said goodbye and "I will miss you".  I went to her car and in front of my eyes, the black car moved away. the last picture in mind is of when she was sitting in the car.that moment was the last moment I actually lived. I felt like I was being deprived of my life the next day was her flight to an Arab country. 10 A.M in the morning departure and when she landed after 3 hours, there was a distance, distance of 4000 miles. the moment she left me one night before I started missing her and I'm missing her while typing too. it's not like I'm not happy for her. I'm happy she went to her home after 8 or 9 months. I know she doesn't belong to this land, land of multi-faced people I know she deserved to live in a place she deserves even tho there is no place like heaven but believe me, the pure soul she owns deserves to live in a place no other than heaven. I loved her from the day she came in my life...