SECOND PLACE

Have you ever gotten the feeling that you’re always going to be put last by someone you need to be first for? And no matter how hard you try to please them, they’re always going to like someone else better. No matter what you do for them they’ll always be pointing out what you didn’t do. And you always keep wondering what you’re doing wrong, what are you missing, are you just not trying hard enough, can you just never be enough, what is wrong with you? Why doesn’t this person like you as much as the others? What can they give them that you can’t? And even after you try to make all the big decisions of your life to be what would please them, they don’t even realise how unhappy those big decisions have made you, how much you’ve started to hate your life and your future because they’re too busy criticising you for not doing the smaller things their way.

It's the worst always coming in second when everything you do is to get the first spot. It's the worst when it seems everyone in your life prefers someone else over you, and especially when it's the people that you always put above the others. 

But no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much it kills you inside, you can never do anything to change that, except just accepting that you'll always have second place.